You are drawing near

Hello,

Thank you again for wanting to be a part of my journey and walk this difficult road with me!

Tomorrow mid-morning I will be going in for a PET/CT scan to see if the cancer has spread to any other parts of my body. I'm not going to lie but this scan has me a little more anxious than my MRI. I will need to be in there for an hour. I know it's a bigger tube but for me it's still a tube where I can't move and have to lie facing upwards this time. Before I have the scan they will inject me with a radioactive substance and I will need to sit in the dark for an hour before I have the scan.

People have asked how am I doing. Overall, I'm in good spirits but I'm emotionally and mentally exhausted. It's a lot to take in and every day presents me with new challenges and being stretched beyond my comfort zone.

Right now the song "Find You Here" by Ellie Holcomb has been exactly what I have been feeling lately. Look at the words below.

Thanks!

Kim

It's not the news that any of us hoped that we would hear 
It's not the road we would have chosen, no
The only thing that we can see is darkness up ahead
But You're asking us to lay our worry down and sing a song instead

And I didn't know I'd find You here
In the middle of my deepest fear, but
You are drawing near
You are overwhelming me, with peace

So I'll lift my voice and sing
You're gonna carry us through everything
You are drawing near
You're overwhelming all my fears, with peace

You say that I should come to You with everything I need
You're asking me to thank you even when the pain is deep
You promise that You'll come and meet us on the road ahead
And no matter what the fear says, You give me a reason to be glad

And I didn't know I'd find You here
In the middle of my deepest fear, but
You are drawing near
You are overwhelming me, with peace

So I'll lift my voice and sing
You're gonna carry me through everything
You are drawing near
You're overwhelming all my fears, with peace

Here in the middle of the lonely night
Here in the middle of the losing fight, You're
Here in the middle of the deep regret
Here when the healing hasn't happened yet

Here in the middle of the desert place
Here in the middle when I cannot see Your face
Here in the middle with Your outstretched arms
You can see my pain and it breaks Your heart

And I didn't know I'd find You here
In the middle of my deepest fear, but
You are drawing near
You are overwhelming me with, peace

So I'll lift my voice and sing
You're gonna carry us through everything
You are drawing near
You're overwhelming all my fear with peace

Rejoice, rejoice
Don't have to worry 'bout a single thing, 'cause 
You are overwhelming me with, peace!

Don't have to worry 'bout a single thing
You're gonna carry us through everything
Overwhelming peace...